For the last two weeks, I've been hiding from the world. I honestly think I've been recovering from a broken heart. The results of the American election threw a curve ball at me that hit harder than even Brexit could have.
I couldn't figure out why it hurt me so much, it felt deeply personal and I had no words to articulate the pain. There have been so many voices screaming into the void over the last two weeks, some useful, some not so much and I couldn't figure out how to add to them. I also couldn't get online and start acting like everything was normal.
So, I just remained quiet. I cried a bit. I got really angry. I stayed in bed way longer than I should have.
Then last week I went to celebrate some amazingly talented musicians I get to call my friends and the launch of their new record label in the beautiful St. Pancras Old Church.
I was overcome with emotion and gratitude for the beautiful, diverse, loving life I get to be a part of.
2016 has been a pretty tough year, it has taken so many of our most loved musicians and left us with the hot steaming mess that is Donald Trump and Brexit.
On a personal level, I've had a few face-down-in-the-dirt moments this year.
So, I started focusing on all the rubbish, which is so easily done. Leading me to forget that it has also been a year full of wonder and joy. I travelled all over Colombia and Peru, I took a slow boat down the Amazon, I went trekking in the Andes, I started this blog, I've learned so much and grown so much.
So, instead of allowing the crappy bits of 2016 to steal my joy I have decided to actively choose gratitude in the face of pain and negativity.
Some of the things I'm grateful for today
If you've been having a tough time of it lately I hope you can find some peace and joy in the small moments of beauty that surround your everyday.